So its been a few. In the interval I've been to Vegas, met some interesting people, tried some new recipes for drunkenness, and surfaced some truth.
Vegas...trade show...'nuff said. I met someone out of the ordinary though. We went right ahead, dropped guard, and talked story for a bit about our current relationship obstacles; we both got 'em. She's engaging and authentic...something unique in her I think. The conversation: much candor and quiet insight...moving; am glad to know she's walking around...a very pleasant surprise when I was writing the whole trip off.
She also turned me on to this: take a Corona, drink off a bit (you will forget this step at some point in the evening), pour a shot of Bacardi Limon in, press the ubiquitous lime wedge home, invert to mix. I think it's called a Loaded Corona. Not bad.
A woman of Cheek I occasionally speak with (way past appreciation, but nowhere to go...I would sigh but I get teased when I do) detailed to me a while back an alcoholic creation dubbed by its creators 'the Chupacabra' (there are others, mostly fruity, forget them), so I also had one of those served up while I was out and about: A Bloody Mary made with Tequila, garnished with beef jerky...I have it on good authority that bacon will also do. Sounds a little off? Try it you big baby.
And then came cancelled concerts and bad reactions. You work hard to do the right thing and sometimes it works (i.e. outcomes positive and appreciated)...sometimes not. I want to put my past in the rear-view (have places to go), but principle and upbringing have me governed...stuck in 2nd gear. That's how it often seems to be with men; suspended between our desire and our honor; honest values sure, but voluntary chains still suck. I am surprised at how few women I meet recognize/accept/understand that (some get it/live it); I'm finding it's certainly a common masculine reality, a near constant among good men when relationships are sputtering.
Anyway, stretched thin trying to be a better man...and bummed that Neko Case cancelled her Summer tour
after I had wrangled primo tickets in a great venue.
